How many times have you heard God call you for service while you responded to Him with a "But Lord" or "I can't" or "I don't know how"? Did you realize that you have lots in common with Moses? Just because Moses saw God and was even spoken of as a friend of God in the bible, doesn't mean that he always possessed the kind of faith that can move mountains. In fact, I think that Moses got on God's nerves with His insecurities for a time.
If you don't remember the story of Moses, he was the Hebrew born in Egypt at a time when the Egyptians were starting to fear the Hebrew people because they were multiplying like mad. A decree had gone out to kill all firstborn Hebrew babies but baby Moses survived because he floated in his little bed on the river right to the daughter of Pharoah. Moses was brought up as an Egyptian prince but eventually God's call on his life, whether he knew it or not, brought him out of the palace into the desert and eventually to the mountain of God, staring at God in the burning bush, and called as the deliverer of Israel from bondage. How's that for a reader's digest version?
So, God tells Moses that he is "the man" and what does Moses say? "Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the children of Israel, out of Egypt?" (Ex 3:11) God reassures Moses that He would be with Moses, and through the next several chapters of Exodus we see the ongoing dialogue between God and Moses as Moses whines and God reassures. Below, I'll summarize the whinings. Between the whinings but not presented here, God tells Moses how he will be able to do what is asked of him.
Ex 4:1 But suppose they will not believe me....
Ex 4:10 But I am not an eloquent speaker...
Ex 4:13 Lord, send someone else...
Now, the Lord, gets a little angry (Ex 4:14)
Ex 5:22 Lord, why did you send me?
Ex 6:12 Israel didn't listen to me, why should Pharaoh?
Ex 6:30 How shall Pharaoh hear me?
Do you get the point here? Moses was insecure and did not have a strong faith early in his faith walk, just like you and I feel at times. But he kept coming back to God to talk things out and finally, he believed. Granted, it took seeing God's hand through plagues on Egypt, but remember, the whole God thing was new back then, relatively speaking. He didn't have several bibles documenting all of God's miracles like you and I do.
The good news is this. Moses' faith grew. In fact, it grew so much that he was mentioned in the Hebrews "Hall of Faith".
By faith, Moses, when he became of age, refused to be called the son of Pharaoh's daughter, choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God than to enjoy the passing pleasures of sin, esteeming the reproach of christ greater riches than the treasures in Egypt; for he looked to the reward. (Hebrews 11:24-26)
By faith he forsook Egypt, not fearing the wrath of the king; for he endured as seeing Him who is invisible. By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, lest he who destroyed the firstborn should touch them. (Hebrews 11:27-28)
Ours can grow too. No matter what our insecurities, our faith can grow and we can do mighty things for God as He works in us, with us, and through us. Are you ready to get started?