As I mentioned in my last couple of posts, I recently just attended a seminar for potential and current Christian leaders, authors and speakers. While I'm not a published author, except for this blog and some church newsletters, and I'm not a frequent speaker, I attended this seminar in an attempt to follow the cloud of God's guidance.
Upon reflecting about my experience this week, combined with my daily reading again today, I feel as if my journey last week was one of spying out my land of Canaan. In my reading this morning, I came to Numbers 13, the story of how Moses sent out a representative from each of the twelve tribes to check out the promised land and report back as to the condition of that land. In Numbers13:17-20, Moses asks his spies to check out the people of the land (strong or weak), their living situations (tents or fortresses) and the condition of the land (fruitful or not).
Here is what I learned from my spying:
1. I like the land. Scarey as it is to admit this, I think that the idea of teaching God's word in a large group setting seems like something I would enjoy doing.
2. The people in the land are "strong". I definitely felt like one of the least experienced people out of the 100+ in attendance. I've had limited speaking experience and am surely not a published author as so many of the attendees were.
3. The people lived in fortresses. Looking at the writing and speaking industry from the outside, it would appear that breaking into it would be like breaking into a fortress. After all, how many people really get published by the major publishing houses and how many people actually make a living by speaking?
So, that is my report. If indeed I caught a glimpse of my future Land of Canaan, I saw that the land was good but somewhat intimidating. Facts are facts, after all. But what each of us do with the facts that are placed before us is what really determines our destiny. I wonder how many of the attendees at CLASS were like the 10 spies who said "we be not able to go up against the people; for they are stronger than we." (Nu 13:31). How many were like Joshua and Caleb who were confident in God's ability to deliver His will for their lives?
If the Lord delight in us, then he will bring us into this land, and give it us; a land which floweth with milk and honey. Only rebel not ye against the Lord, neither fear ye the people of the land; for they are bread for us: their defence is departed from them, and the Lord is with us: fear them not. (Nu 14:8-9)
I want to be the Joshua or Caleb. I may not be as experienced as some of the people there, but if God is on my side then things will work out. I'm just going to hold on and try to enjoy the ride and follow the cloud of God's direction. After all, I do enjoy roller coasters.
What is your "promised land"? Can you see it? Do you believe that God can accomplish anything in your life? Don't be afraid to dream big. You never know what might happen.