For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you. - Romans 12:3 NIV
The monster reared its ugly head in the local Bible college library last Thursday afternoon. It wasn't the first time I'd seen its face, but it was the most prominent sighting of late and the most attention grabbing. And wouldn't you know, the monster was also witnessed by a friend of mine. Go figure. This monster was pride ... mine. But people should be quiet in libraries, right? Especially the librarians of such libraries. Therefore you would think that meetings - with people talking - should not be held in the middle of library quiet areas ...especially if I was present, working on what I thought was a noble cause. I hope you can grasp the scene. Because of my entitlement to the perfect environment and the fact that I wasn't receiving the peace and quiet that I deserved, I made a comment to my friend, packed up my stuff in a huff and left ... madder than a hornet.
To make a long story short, this incident, along with some kind words (in that they were the painful truth) from a friend, caused me to dig deep inside and realize that my reaction stemmed from pride. Ouch. As I looked back on the past several months of my life, I realized that this wasn't just a one time thing. All of the little irritations I feel on a daily basis also stemmed from pride. Why pride? Because most of my frustrations in life result from interruptions of my time and my agenda. I'll say it again...pride...because after all, my time is too valuable to be interrupted by a barking dog, a slow person in traffic, etc. God revealed to me again the painful truth that no matter how many things I do for Him, if I'm not being who He wants me to be, I cannot please Him for Romans 8:8 says
Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God. (NIV)
And for good measure, scripture further describes some acts of the sinful nature (my emphasis added):
The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God. (Galatians 4:19-21)
Another ouch. I want to please God. I want to hear the words "Well done, good and faithful servant" from God someday as they pertain to me. But I cannot please God if am walking around with the sin of a prideful spirit, no matter how subtle it is. Now, I've got to take action with some scripture memory (Ro 8:8 will be my choice) and a lot of prayer of Psalm 139:23-24. I've got some work to do.
Be your judge:
1) What subtle sin would a sober judgment of your spirit reveal?
2) When was the last time you asked God to reveal sin in your life to you so that you could change it?
Dear Father, I thank you that you take the time to chastise your children, even me, for those things that you do not approve of. Forgive me for my pride. Continue to mold me into the woman you want me to be, even if it hurts sometimes. Reveal to me the areas you wish me to change. I know that you want what is best of me and for me. Amen.