The Weight and the Wait
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, - Hebrews 12:1
What weight are you carrying today that is keeping you from running the race God has set before you? We all have something. The weight could be our own sin or a situation that is getting the best of us. It could be an attitude of our own or of someone else that weighs on us day after day. The weight could be loneliness or even too much interaction with others. Take your pick. And I'll ask again, what is your weight?
I don't share many details here about specific areas in my life, but today I feel compelled to share so that maybe others can know they are not alone. In the past week, the fact that I am in a sense in a spiritually unequally yoked marriage has been in the forefront of my mind. My husband is a Christian and a good man, however the gap between where we both are spiritually provides great challenges for both of us. Let's just say that my relationship with God means everything to me while I don't sense that my husband feels the same in his relationship with the Lord. (Note: This is my sense alone, I am not a mind reader so I don't really KNOW how my husband feels)/ I felt this "weight" today when I went alone to church. I felt it last week when he accompanied me to church but didn't participate as I thought he should. Can you see how this can weigh on a person?
It is difficult for a woman who feels called to Christian service/leadership to be in this place. Being in leadership is difficult enough without this extra burden of a spouse who cannot relate in both the joy and the hardships (including spiritual warfare) of Christian service. So, what can we do? First of all, we must focus on ourselves and our own relationship with God. We can choose to daily lay our weights down at the foot of the cross. We can give whatever it is to God in prayer. And then, we must wait. We must wait for God to respond to our humble prayers in His due time. That is the hard part, isnt it? I wonder if that's what the verse in Hebrews 12:1 means when it says to "run with patience the race that is set before us"?
As I heard our pastor this morning discuss Romans 8:37-39 and how nothing can separate us from the love of God, my mind wandered as I thought of how grateful I am for His love and for the hope that I have through His word. We are promised that through everything we can be "more than conquerors" through Jesus Christ. We can let God take our weights so we can run the race. I'm choosing once again today in my life to not let the weight of my situation drag me down. I am going to focus on the finish line and on God's promises for me. We can all choose to lay aside our weights. Won't you join me today?
For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen, O God, beside thee, what he hath prepared for him that waiteth for him. (Isaiah 64:4)
Dear Heavenly Father, I am speechless to think of the love you have for me and of the provisions you make for me. Help me to lay my weights down at your feet each day so you can take them and carry them for me. I pray not just for myself, but for all who love you and have their own weights they are trying to carry. Lord, it would be a lonely place in this world without you. Keep strong your servants. Give us your peace, your strength and the knowledge that no matter where we are in our lives, we are not so far away that your love cannot penetrate us. Help us to sense your love and your presence in our lives. Thank you for all that you do and all that you will do for us. Most importantly, I thank you for who you are. Amen.